what a weird day. what weird people I know or once knew. went to dan's graduation party with azzam and aj. hung out for a while, but man. it's just weird it's been three years in collee and that dan's already done. I also find it weird how such extroverted people can still be so shy inside. I expected him to invite a bunch of people, but only like 4 friends from emory came, in addition to us three/sam+gf/nicki b/dwang/arnold/ALLEGRA LOL. like what. what a bizarre mix of people, and I don't see why dan didn't invite garrett or randy or any of them but invited arnold and allegra. so confused/sad so much time has passed. I guess I really am the only person who even bothers to talk to people from high school. understandably, some people shun everyone (rison?). what sucks is that, while I am definitely finally over allegra (as of last summer really), I still feel bad that she stopped hanging out with "the group" basically because of us when I still cared so much about her. And while she said, on the outside, at the party that she's changed a lot and that she hasn't talked to any of us the past few years and seems to be happy going away each summer to music camp with new people she doesn't know, I know for a fact that she is upset about it all, as am I, as seen in that phone call last November. I've done all I can, and I was fine until seeing her in person, but I know I'll be fine again soon. can't make people change their minds, can't change people

why can't people see how much I care about them